Finally I have new post from my own PC..
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Today,,
Consider as the first day we officially starts P&P...
But early in the morning already got problem~

We cant find the class key and we cant get in the class!!T^T...
Until need Encik Puzi bring all the screwdriver,playar, etc to buka pintu...=.="
He pull and pull the door as if like want to runtuhkan the pintu..

While we wait for him..Pn Santhi(my BI teacher) ask us to use the Makmal Form 6 first..
But luckily..Later the door berjaya dibuka by En. Puzi...

The after that is my Add Math lesson..Pn Noraini teach..Well..She doesnt waste time..She keep on teaching so that we wont left out any topics..But the way she teach..I shall say.."CUTE"..LOL~
She like little girl..*Dont Kill Me!!><"*

Then SV..No teacher..Then do homework...Then rehat...

Ohya..When rehat I and Kit Yee went to Ko-Op but books..Then I bump into Fazina..Then she says.."I have someting for you"..
That time I blur blur...
"Huh??For me??o.O"
*bring it out from the pocket*

KYAAA~~
It's JAEJOONG OPPA'S keychain..

I none stop shouting "CUTE..CUTE..CUTE"
*OK..that time everyone watching me!!>0<"*
I really love...None stop seeing it~

Then next is my Moral..Nothing special..Just teacher explain what we need to do for folio..
*DanDan..Last time I help you take picture..Now is your turn to take my picture..Haha~*

Then..
My Mod Maths!!
Oooooo....
Cik Hajar teach!!!
But actually..I dont hate her or dislike her..
Just that her teaching method..
You know how she teach??
She read out every line in the textbook...
Even those usually you see the front page of a chapter where you have the objectives/key point..
There got some examples..She go read that thing also...
I study for dont know how many years..None of my teacher will read that and she is the first one!=.="

And what she teach today is about the significant figures...
She teach until I think herself also pening sikit...
But somehow..She memang asked to teach me..So what I gotta do is to cope up with her teaching!T^T
(Ganbateh!!)

Then the final subject..
PHYSICS...
by Pn.Anita
But..Because of some problem..I went out the class late and end up I kinda late for her class and no place at the first and second table..I terpaksa seat at the 3rd table..ONLY me..Kit Yee and Lala sitting there!!Other all in front!!T^T..I dont like..

Plus on my eyes got problem..I cant even read..No..Should say SEE what is on the board..
Plus to those who got experience in her class...
She like to do the mind maps..So the writing will be small on the board..
Lagi I cannot read..
All I can see are a bunch of black lil' ants...
She asked us to salin the stuff on the board..
I was thinking..
"Oh..shit..Hopefully she dont come here"
Then I terpaksa bergantung on Kit Yee's note..I do according what's she writing...

Then she asked us to read together the definision of physical quantities..
I think Angela cant find where is that text so didnt read together and teacher spotted her and kinda 'wash' her...
Wow..This teacher memang cannot play play with...

Then she asked do together with us the derived quantities...
At first I got really really lost..
Because I cant see and hear(her voice kinda too soft...)-->Like nanny only...

Then at the end..I kinda like got back on track...
The last 3 question I be able to do it...
And the last one..When Im doing she is standing beside me...

Haiz...I wonder how can I be friend with her??
Like other teacher I just go salam and automatic they are my 'friend'..
But I dont think this work on her!!T^T

She kinda like have bad impression on me liao..
because I was kinda late for her class...
And one moment during the class she said "Be here on time..I dont hope to have any late comer in the future..And who are the late comers just now??"
*hand up*
"OK..Got it??"
*nodd nodd*

*cries out loud*

And then at home...
I always argue with my mum...
Almost 3 days liao...
She hor..
I dont know what to say...
Sometimes I feel like Im afraid of home...
Dont want to go home..

My mum is as if a PRESIDENT...
Every minute..no..second she also MUST..Got it??is a MUST fast...
Last Sunday..She came to fetch me from IT King...

She came earlier I think..But I was on the second floor using internet..Because I thought she will be late..Because the previous week..I waited them for 2 hours there..Sitting like an idiot...

Then Angela and Agnes went down..
Angela didnt recognize that's my mum till a teacher came and called me...
I naik kereta..
OK...Ambik kau..Cuci and Cuci and Cuci...
OK..This one..I kira as my fault lah...

Then when she fetch me back from school..
I wait for her in the hall as usual..
When I saw her arrived..I walked out..
I walk also fast because I know she cant even wait for me to WALK...
Plus..If I walked to big steps then my baju kurung punya sarung koyak loh...
I took around not more than 1 minute and once I buka pintu..
Not to say I got into the car,,
She already start shouting "Faster lah you..Like a fatty only..Want to cat walk somemore.."
o.O...
I already very fast liao how fast she wants more???
That word is only English Translation..
I chinese lagi sakit hati..
I feel like got millions of knives stabbing to my heart...
She wont know how pain that will be...
All she knows only..
"YOU MUST BE FAST NO MATTER YOU RUN TILL POKAI KE APA"

Then next case..
Because I consider masuk RK class...So the JPN need my details because all my exam marks will dipantau oleh mereka...
Then about study..Dont know why need parents pay slip..
I told my dad since last week..(teacher wants it today)
He said "OK..Tomorrow go buy the voucher book"
But he didnt do..Till today morning I asked them ..
They scold me..
"NOW ONLY YOU TELLING ME THIS"
"DONT HAVE AR..TELL TEACHER TOMORROW LAH"
I told them that teacher MUST have it on Monday which is today..They didnt do anything for me..I mana tau anything bout their gaji and etc??
That time when he told me that(with his eyes terbeliak like wanna eat me only) is at this stall at Wah Nam..
I was so upset plus freak out..On the spot..In the public..
I punched the wall...My hand bleeds..One tissue habis..


Lantak lah..I dont even bother about the wounds..
I always pujuk myself not to punch wall or do anything to hurt myself..
Because I still need my hands to play drum
and JaeJoong is one of my factors to keep on this prinsip...
But I cant stand it...I need to realize my feeling...
As you know..I m only child and I have no one to express myself...
I cant do anything...
Im so hopeless...
All I can do sometimes is watch and hear anything bout DBSK to membisukan all my pain...

My parents wont know...
They thought only they have all this problem..
Because they see me having all the good times..
They didnt see all my bad times..Because I cant even show them~
When I wanna show..Or I TER-show...
What I get as feedback is a one good scolding...

Hide in the room's corner and have a good cry is one best way~
other than DBSK method...

I hurt myself??
They dont even will ask why until 2 or 3 days later?!
I kena lecur..I already like give signals..She still wont get it..
What is the solution??
Hide at one corner and cry again...

Sometimes I think why do I come to this world??
And they have + and - answers..
If Im not here..They will be more freedom and less burden..
If Im here..Someone can look after them when they are old...
and because that I know DBSK and OR..
I cant differentiate which is the best answers?

Im sick of life...
I always come across my mind to end this up...
But I think back that they will be sad...
and I gonna miss my friends,DBSK,OR and everyone I know...
So I pull off this attempt...

I should stop here to prevent these tears continue rolling down..
If not..tomorrow my eyes sure swollen one~
So..
Till then~

DBSK is love @ 7:00 AM