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♥Wednesday, December 31, 2008

The final day of the year~,♥

As everyone know..Today is 31/12/2008,the final day of 2008..In a few hours more 2009 will arrive..And I have a SADDEST story of the year,real story to share!
As usually..Woke up early 5.30am help my mum then rush to market(Big Market in Ipoh)..I'm helping my mum buy coconut juice..She wants RM10 coconut juice..And she gave me a lot of RM1 note..Then she go buy vegetables and I RAN..Yes!I mean I RAN~I'm not walking but RUNNING to just help her buy the RM10 coconut juice..When I reach the coconut juice stall and ordered it..Then I was "OH SHIT..Less RM1"..That time I didn't bring my pursue because I left it in the house..Then I told the Auntie I'll be back..I'm RAN the whole BIG MARKET again..But I still couldn't find my mum..I ran the WHOLE BIG MARKET about 5 or 6 time round..Still I can't find her..
Then I gave up and went back to the stall and told the Auntie I don't have enough money..Because my mum is the regular costumer so the Auntie gave me the cocnut juice and I RAN BACK TO THE CAR AGAIN!!My mum was waiting me outside the car coz I'm holding the car key..Then I ran to her, pass her the key..Then she shouted to me "WHAT TAKE YOU SO DAMN LONG??JUST BUY ME THE RM10 COCONUT JUICE TAKE YOU SO LONG??"..Then I replied "YOU GAVE ME NOT ENOUGH MONEY!"..Then she shut her mouth and open her pursue and gave me RM1 and RAN BACK TO THE STALL AGAIN!
Then once again I RAN BACK TO THE CAR..Jump in the car and she start SHOUTING,SCREAMING,SCOLDING me...She said "IF NOT ENOUGH MONEY MEANS YOU CAN BUY LESS RM1 COCONUT JUICE..YOU SUCH AN IDIOT!!OK..NEXT TIME YOU DON'T HAVE TO HELP ME BUY ANYTHING..I'M DOING EVERYTHING MYSELF...I SEE YOU LOOK LIKE THIS I FEEL SORRY!"
And I don't know why..I feel so depressed and sad..I feel what I did early in the morning is not worth it..I'm not sad because I'm running the whole market early in the morning but I feel sad coz she said me idiot and stupid..And I feel what I did is NOT WORTH IT~!I got think to buy less cocnut juice but afraid she need it...Then I try to find her and ask for the RM1..
Then she continue SHOUTING,SCREAMING,SCOLDING ME..She also said "FINE..NEXT TIME I WON'T ASK YOU TO BUY ANYTHING MORE..YOU LOOK AS IF YOU HELP ME BUY 100 STUFF..OK..NO NEXT TIME..I'LL REMEMBER THIS INCIDENT FOR REST OF MY LIFE..OK..I'M SORRY"
I don't know why?When she said "sorry" my tears running out like the waterfall...And I said"CAN YOU STOP SAYING IT?"..But she ignores me!

Today,this final day for 2008 is my worst day in my whole life..I feel like want to suicide that time..I was in the car and I feel like opening the door and jump out and let the next car hit me and DIE..I can't and don't have the courage to keep on living anymore!

By the way..I would like to wish other better luck people Happy New Year..And hope you won't have to go through a life like mine...
And I hope myself in 2009 will have a better and way better life to go through..OR ELSE I REALLY GONNA SUICIDE!

DBSK is love @ 4:35 AM